now my friend

cast back to the moment news broke,
you bobbed senselessly
 awash in misunderstanding.
then you were dragged back in,
then we all knew you couldn't win.

the whole world ignored,
slack jawed gawping and bored.

look back at the body you could've won,
had you cracked the whip on your own back,
had you cut yourself less slack.

but you swallowed sweet pills in place of bitter ones.
you curled up in your bed,
you groaned for the profound pain in your head.

now my friend,
you are stupid
and fat.