Wednesday, 29 June 2011
your caught back, in the very back of some net
that begot all you were too willing to forget,
too many squandered moments of divinity,
were you to have had the key to all religions
resting, nonchalantly in the palm of some bowl,
you would have stubbed it like a cigarette.
There is no truth greater than the truth
that we don't know, there is no rage that
pours out like a thick gas rolling from a beaker.
Blend it all into circular nothing, grey
paste to plaster cracks and coat a stone face.
Build up the tower block with a patch of green
solitude, wrung up in its core,
like the pulp left to dry out from a deftly peeled
orange, clinical cuts, jutted out jaws,
and not easily satisfied paws, tearing
at the pours of poor malleable little street toughs.
Tuesday, 28 June 2011
AS hollow as my life, running from a tracking shot,
caught up in a sinuous mesh, a maze; a no frills mausoleum,
where the coffins are made of wafer and only the privileged few are embalmed,
where you stuff candy into socks and under the bed before some all seeing eye,
count tight your blessings, hold close your dreams, before the second coming.
AS subjected to your wailings, wailing upon my piteous soul;
your pious irreverence, passing through my cynicism with incandescence,
catching me off guard with some glancing blow of sincerity ,
caught up like a mad man, that once found the answers,
but chased them through the spirals of the wind onto unreachable rooftops,
like a ticket stub in a hurricane.
AS you left me, sedate, all wrongs rectified,
unbiasedly, unabashedly in love, with some overwrought emotion,
emboldened by false promises, fearless, proud, and blessed...
Fastidiously unbuttoning a dress, religious, pious, and yet... yes;
all of this cocktail, is savored, by no saviour, no hangman, no. less.
love, bitterly, it must be admitted, is the passion, of adam regressed.
Saturday, 25 June 2011
the reprimanding blow that reminds you,
you are pressed up against a glass pane.
features blurring into a peach canvas,
with your old papers crumpling,
as your new ideas break like waves,
new fruition bending bows.
As the reaper, breaks in half,
and the orchids burst to bloom and laugh,
the fire is crackling, like beetles snapped in half.
Thursday, 23 June 2011
your gone, and yet you dart in and out of my head...
like a fish disappearing into a shoal,
like a silver fish, darting into rice,
so that i choke back the vomit in my mouth
yet inevitably i'll forget,
forget, this glint,
this shining sadness,
recoil at the occasional flicker
a haunting that lasts all of a moment,
that full sigh, as a part feigns to die.
you will become no more than table scraps,
or the white mold that grows on a glass,
left beside a chair and forgotten.
or maybe you'll be a phoenix.
and, rupture... shatter... across my path,
dashing bright blood across everything,
passion and impulse and joy,
a dissolving bitter pill,
that fizzes up and drowns,
through the fissure of my skull,
like a fish hook through the eye.
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
discord spreads through the avenues, that run around all this fag ash,
a template 4 inches in circumference is blasting out a little white picket fence,
a dog, a cat, and friends at that, all the pipe dream of some sentimental, some mislaid miscreant.
cajoling his friends into cinemas to watch films about reasonable adultery and personable pedophiles, lack luster bluster a blunderbuss aimed at a priest with the convictions of a cardinal,
so ready and willing to sin.
with all of the letters spewing out of me in the wrong order,
and with all of this broken up sentiment gathering like sediment in the bottom of a glass,
there is fire in the fractions but its still just broken glass,
there is nothing that is remembered fully enough to be defined,
there is everything and nothing but it needs to be refined.
Tuesday, 21 June 2011
I hope i'm not really grinding to a halt,
running aground on some new shore,
only to find that province is really run down and bleak.
I hope i'm not grounded, rooted, fixed,
by some unspeakable shame,
or all washed up in an oil slick.
I hope that these feelings aren't misguided,
when I tell myself i'm at the brink,
of some brave new salvation.
I hope that i'm finally cleansed,
of all of this tar thats covering my feathers,
that is filling my lungs.
I hope that the days will not grow shorter,
to the point that there is further rationing,
and I hope the end is not in sight.
I hope, beyond hope, before hope and during it,
that at the point that I am no longer my past,
that I realise I've done almost everything right.
Wednesday, 15 June 2011
As of if to lodge a toothpick in my brain,
as if to climb up and grapple with the feelings that refrain,
that restrain me, such a well trained me, so ill explained me,
a crumbling block of cookie dough, sweet unnecessary nothing,
tumbling from the kitchen slate to be swept and taken out,
by any old clown with a broom, who wants to clear the room,
who wanted you first, who wanted you well early, but not too soon.
I'm here all cut up and in pieces, it just kills me to think of you,
getting all doe eyed over some ignorant nothing, with a smart shirt,
all buttoned to the collar, filled up with the smell of himself,
so organized and confident, yet bitterly bitterly mundane.
I thought it was pouring out of my eyes,
like led that sets where it falls,
thought it was bleeding from my pours,
as certain as day bleeds into night,
I only sang your praises, I only wished you blessed.
a melody so certain, that it sang straight from my chest.
But the rigmarole, the draining droll,
the production line and the cynical smile,
these things bleed from me too,
I am caught between flood lights,
one of love, one of boredom,
but equally bright, too bright to forget.